Her phone pinged suddenly. She, groggy from her mild stupor, took it to check what the ping was all about. It was an email. Her heart raced.
She hadn’t seen this name flash on her screen for almost two years now. Two years and a few months,to be precise. It was an email from Him. She bubbled with anger inside her. “Two years of complete silence and now He chooses to ask if everything was fine? “. She was indignant. Yet, composed and calm,she typed in a reply. A formal and crisp one, just answering His question. And there it began. One, two,… Seven emails exchanged in continuous succession. Her heart regained its normal pace but her mind was full of thoughts. She shut down her phone and tried sleeping. Memories fleeted by her eyes.
“It was two years back that they were totally in love. Blinded, to be honest. They adored and respected each other for what they were. They cherished their bond. Or rather, she cherished it. There was not a single day when she felt grateful for what God had given her. She had made a promise never to throw it away. She never even thought of it.
And it all ended one fine afternoon. Over a phone call. This was not what she had expected Him to do. Of all the people, she never expected Him to be so cowardly and flimsy. She couldn’t bring words together to string a sentence. Silence was all that she had as a reply. Silence was all that she had as a reason for getting discarded. Life went on. She had her friends, though few, to nurse her heart. To hold her tight and say its alright. To take the liberty of abusing Him. Not once did she open her mouth to join in the fun. Not once. ”
Her eyes welled up. She swallowed her emotions. After all life has moved on a lot after that. Lots of things have changed for the good. She has changed too. She had lived up to His words. She had lived as a strong and independent woman. Just like He had wanted. She had had the maturity to take in only the best of what He had told her to be. She was proud of it. And happy too.
She had long wanted a confrontation. To ask him what exactly went wrong. For her own peace of mind. But she had always avoided it. She didn’t want to be accused of creating a scene. She despised melodrama. She now thought,”Why not? I have nothing to lose”.
She packed her bag and locked her apartment. Clearly aware of what she was going for and what the repercussions of her actions will be. For the first time, she didn’t care about what He would feel.
She set out and boarded the train. All through the journey, thinking and rethinking. Oblivious to the beauty that was moving past her outside the window. She was clearly overwhelmed. She walked to his place. With all the determination and courage she had. She didn’t want to break down in front of him. She did not want to look weak and helpless.
There she saw him. He was busy talking to someone. She didn’t get her voice to call him out. “Funny how these things fail us when we need them the most”,she thought.
She stood there, like a statue. And then it seemed that His conversation was nearing the end. Her heart started pounding again. She wanted to turn back and walk off. But, her legs failed her this time. She didn’t want to be seen by Him. But she stood on.
Then, their eyes met. Two pairs of eyes that had a beautiful bond years ago. Eyes that had spoken so many silent words with each other. Eyes that had promised to be there for each other for ever and ever.
Yes, their eyes met.